Im just another damned man, living in a damned world.

I cant hold any longer. THis is making me crazy.

Why do i have to beg you to come Np campcraft?
If you dun wan to help the girls team than fine.
Didnt even bother to bring attire.
Beg you for so long to help someone.
You think you wad? A king?
Kaiser? Tsar? Emperor?
OR Doryking?
You think such a slacker like you will give them
precious suggestion?
Wad crap you say.
"the twine better quality than training one."
Yeah right thats gonna help them a lot.
They will win with a lift of their finger,
because your 'suggestion' was so important.
I came today because i really want to help them.
Everytime i came to help, CI, HO wadeva will
try some ways to pump me.
Its the last training b4 their competition tmr.
"Competition over liao, who cares abt the girls"
I wonder who the Fcuker who said that.

Came as if its a meaningless training and slack.
Come on dumb fish, can you spare a thought for others?
Especially you are a part of Xms Npcc.
So wad our boys didnt do well and the competition is over.
Cant you have the initiative to help your own unit?
The whole week is full of chances to help them.
Wad did some bloody fool did?
Stayed at home shake leg play computer.
Oh so that is how you treat others?
People are in school trying their best to train,
i think they need advise to win too.
(although i dunno if my advice is beneficial to them)
I tried, tried my best to help.
It was really heartwarming as their timing get faster,
i think its not over the problem whether they are better
than the boys team, they are still our fellow schoolmates.
I would feel better if they can do better than us.
That is why i wanted to help them, so they can represent us
and win the competition for us!
But apparently, some stupid dumb shit who selfishly thinks
its not his problem anymore, doesnt have the heart to help!
Wads your problem, it doesnt kill you to help.

Screaming and talking crap was not suppose for them,
thats why i didnt stop you when you imitate them.
Probably to make them stop.
But there is no need to discourage them by saying
their timing is slow, etc.
Thats why i stopped you and was angry the first time.

I seriously think that the mock competition today,
is needed to help them. Although we are not in the
competion anymore. Our speed will motivate them even further.
I really hope we can make a fast pitch too.
But, no one was serious in the mock competition!?!?!
I was relly disapointed. I feel like slacking in the 2nd one.
However, b4 the second try, melvin emphasized to us
abt the purpose of this mock competition.
That makle me thinks that maybe we will
be more serious in the second one.
But apparently some bloody slacker who thinks he did alot,
throw his tantrum at everyone.
I was adjusting the inner part of the shelter,
the middle dowell pole was broken, so i was unable to salvage it.
I used my small method to increase the tension of the shelter.
Suddenly someone idiot step inside and ka jiao me.
He said " I cannot do the tension leh"
If you dunno how to do something, isnt it common sense to get out
and do sth he knows? Despite me telling him "Go and help outside!"
He continued to dilly dally and sort of destroying the middle pole,
So i shouted "Help outside! i settle here!" He still do not understand.
Doesnt he knows that time is running out and its inefficient to stay
inside and blur? So i keep shouting the same thing again.
Smart ppl will finally understand and not blur.
However, he began to get angry and crazy.
Saying I blamed him in everything.
PPl pls justify, from wad i said above, did i blamed him anything yet?
Because of his tantrum we didnt complete in time.
This is then the time i should blame, but i didnt say a word!
So wad is he trying to do by saying i blamed him in the shelter?

I was very disapointed with him ,who i my friend.
Accuse me of so many things.
Worst of all, he didnt think of the truth in the end, and still tries
to be funny. I was so depressed and packed up very slowly.
If you were sad with your 'best friend' would you still do things normally?
Scolded me. Just keep forcing and pushed me to hurry up.
After i packed the stuff, i gotten my bag and walked off.
In fact, i was still very sad and walked off slowly, heads down.
But the CI, apparently thinks i am showing atitude.
Scolded me with such angry tone.
Accusing me for not respecting him.
I was too depressed to answer him in normal tone, and he
assume i was talking rudely and showing atitude.
Just then the slacker idiot walked off w/o informing too.
I tot he was gonna be scolded like me too.
He answered him in a very chheky, heck care tone.
"huh? oh, i forgot got debrief liao ma"
I think that was not respecting Jason rather than me walking off,
which the slacker did too.
So jason forgave him for his rude and forgetful reason.

So i didnt feel good after that. Continued to be what you called,
Emo.
I just walked with the NCOs after training, just to avoid the slacker.
Tecgk guan and bryan was the only one who knows the truth and consoled me.
Tried to appear as if nothing happened, i played with the NCOs,
still feeling sad inside me.

When i walked home, Peiling and Huimin saw me and began to suan me for
kickboxing and lame stuff. "lame shit, noob shit, idiot pig"
they said to me. That hurts...



I wish to be alone...
no link to this cold,
meaningless world.

I wish to walk away...
in silence,
in deny of everything.

I wish to help them...
my words are not needed,
listened.

I wish to be perfect...
no power, no trust,
to influence others.

I wish to change people...
such a loser, stupid idea,
leopard never change its spots.

I wish they were on the same boat...
everyone has their own mindset,
to participate or not to.

I wish i had the trust...
mending what i've done,
i need believe.

I wish i had made my point clear...
helping, doing my best,
to assist.

I wish people knows...
blaming is not what i does,
all i want is complete task.

I wish everything rewind...
rule the way of life i want,
to avoid obstacles all this while.

I wish to get forgiveness...
being a lousy cadet,
noob student.

I wish they treat me nicer...
i've no courage, ecpress my miseries,
and fear.

I wish to close down this computer...
throw me out, disassociate with this,
dull dull world...



Yay. I completed the first part of E learning yesterday. So i can go for girls campcraft training in the morning. WadTheFish, they had so many small mistake even their timing was good. Halfway through, Jon and Ben bought Macd breakfast for the girls. Actually the girls paid themselves.

Then i saw Weiming coming to school for elearning. Why did he come when he had a internet connection at home? lols. After campcraft we went AMK. I went to buy L change the world ticket with Peiling sir and Mrs choong. We went to sumo house to eat b4 the movie started. I heard a grp of ppl shouting my name when i enter. Its Weiming, Meiqi, Louis, Jun Hua, Jaslynn and Nicole. After we odered (dilly dally), it was 10 minutes b4 the movie will start. In the end we takeaway. Ate in the theatre. Lol, sir damn funny when it comes to reaction to the plot of the movie. Then take 159 go home.



Chinese E-learning.

我本身不会把这些不雅照片传出去。 我相信每个人都有自己的隐私， 而尊重他人的隐私是非常重要的。我坚信人人往往会有难以招架的好奇心， 这是人之常情，不可避免的。但是，尊重别人隐私的道德，正义感必须远远胜过心里的好奇心才是最重要的。有些时候，我们想与朋友讨论，就把照片传给他们来提出看法。但我不认为要传达背后的讯息，需要亲眼目睹那些对我们有害的照片。 也许能通过一些报章的正式报道， 来提出看法。我认为， 就算是传给要好的知己分享，也是不对的。 试这用当事人和受害者的角度和位置去思考，对他们所遭受的打击与影响是非一般的。

偶像所需要承担的社会责任比普通人更大，因为他们的言行会得到普罗大众的关注，举止让人怀疑偶像的人格教养。就拿陈冠希来说，这件议论纷纷的丑闻， 让人置疑亚洲社会是否变得开放。偶像对人们的定义会因此而改变吗？自始至终，我们为何会称他们为偶像， 他们让我们欣赏，崇拜他们得才华，还是盲目追偶像？他们的所作所为间接会影响到支持他们的支持者。不少人认为，自己还是会支持者下出事的偶像， 但他们是为了什么原因继续支持呢？那就因事情的严重性而异了。 如果当事人是故意泄漏不雅照片来羞辱，搞得受害者身败名裂，那继续支持他的人就不应该了。

综合上段所言， 我认为传开不雅照片的责任重大，会显示社会尊重隐私权的道德。我们不能从一个角度去观察这件复杂的社会大事。要从多方面去分析他所造成的危害。偶像对普罗大众的影响太大了，必须谨慎处理。



English E-Learning.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=eYuIg7Tnc7g&feature=related

With reference to the video stated on top, i believe there is a wrong impression made that Singapore generally do not speak proper English. Thereby I disagree to the Taiwanese celebrities opinions.

It is probably true that 'Singlish' can be heard among conversation if you walk from Orchard Road, to coffeeshops or shopping malls. It is the language that Singaporeans used in their casual talks, among friends or people they are close to. But, this does not mean that the standard of Singapore's English is low. Since the introduce of the 'Speak Good English' Campaign, many Singaporeans have been aware of the need to speak proper English. This campaign have made a great impact especially in primary school or higher education. In school, it is where we are taught the usage of proper English, and having the campaign during that learning period helps. Singaporeans has the knowledge of proper English and it is always easy for us to use them as and when we want, in the right time. In example, If there is a time where a formal, global event is held, you would not expect to hear a Singaporean speaker speaking in broken English. The reason is, we know proper English and people have the common sense to know when is the right time to use or not use Singlish.

Commenting on the use of Singlish even in casual conversation, I believe it has its pros and cons. Using of Singlish may help to draw nearer the realationship when we communicate, as this is what makes Singaporean common. Every country have their slang as the way of communication changes. Does the taiwanese dares to be sure that they speaks proper language? They probably thinks that the American accent would be the one and only standard. But even so, do they speak proper 'American English' generally?
So how can they insist that Singaporean does not speaks 'American English' and is therefore improper/funny, based on what they have heard from the Singaporean? However, it is true that after constant usage of Singlish, Singaporean might lost the touch of proper English. That is why there is a need for the Speak Good English' Campaign.

In the video, there is sign of them scoffing at the pronounciation of certain words by Singaporean. They mimicked and give a 'standard example of American English'.
Ironically, it is not difficult to find examples where Taiwanese speaking their 'American English' not fluently in formal occasion.

In conclusion, Singaporeans have the capability to speak proper English and not what is stated in the video, 'Singaporeans speaks in weird accents'.



No offence but PRC ppl are cruel. Do not see if you are eating.



Skinned Alive


When undercover investigators made their way onto Chinese fur farms recently, they found that many animals are still alive and struggling desperately when workers flip them onto their backs or hang them up by their legs or tails to skin them. When workers on these farms begin to cut the skin and fur from an animal's leg, the free limbs kick and writhe. Workers stomp on the necks and heads of animals who struggle too hard to allow a clean cut. When the fur is finally peeled off over the animals' heads, their naked, bloody bodies are thrown onto a pile of those who have gone before them. Some are still alive, breathing in ragged gasps and blinking slowly. Some of the animals' hearts are still beating five to 10 minutes after they are skinned. One investigator recorded a skinned raccoon dog on the heap of carcasses who had enough strength to lift his bloodied head and stare into the camera.



Take a look inside the Chinese fur trade


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Before they are skinned alive, animals are pulled from their cages and thrown to the ground; workers bludgeon them with metal rods or slam them on hard surfaces, causing broken bones and convulsions but not always immediate death. Animals watch helplessly as workers make their way down the row.



History Research

1.Tsar Nicholas II
2.Social Democrats

a - Karl Marx

bi - Menshevik
bii - Bolsheviks - Lenin

3. Bloody Sunday
4. Duma
5. War....
6. Rasputin
7. February Revolution
8. Abdication of Tsar Nicholas II, end of Romanov.



Campcraft Comp. over...
3 months of effort,
wasted,
Gone.
Long to fly our flag up high,
we did our best to try.
Sweat and blood.
And after the competiton,
Came our tears,
not the Joy,
But the Sorrow.
The loud spirit,
now the sadden minds.
'spartan' we called ourselves,
spastic we earn ourselves.





Maybe only this movie will remind me of the days of campcraft.




Pure History linked to Modern world. Thats the purpose of studying it.

Ra Ra Rasputin, Lover of the Russian Queen.
Singapore owned Moscow, to host youth olympic.
Ra Ra Rasputin, Russia greatest love machine.
We win it all and said "Our efforts confine".



MOst of the test is over! Physics test was very tricky. 5 pages only but it was difficult. I could do all accept some factual qns, which apparently i didnt learnt.
And those problems solving were so difficult and so much calcultations that i bet there is an error somewhere. I think i will fail Physics test?

Geography test were straight after that. LOls, mr wong discussed the qns b4 we started, is that even a test? The first qn already stunned me, although he go through it. I dun even know what to answer, so crapped a lot about river energy at different speed. And i realised that life w/o a correction tape sux. some stupid dumbell idiot/baka/blod/bai chi have stolen my correction tape. Hope that i answered what is needed for the geog qns.

And the Volleyball match. Same result. Thought that after all the shouting we would win both. B' Girls still lost and boys Won.



Today can be considered quite funny.

In the morning,
didnt see Mr X seating with Nick Lam.
OMG! A miracle!
I tot he likes to stick with Nick all the times?
Weird, must have fell into the toilet bowl.
Or the drain to school was clogged thats
why he didnt swim to reach sch yet.
Then, the chime or bell went.
I rushed to our class to kop a seat.
There was a super duper ultimate
tut and slopey hairstyle in front of me!
Guess who is it?
Yes, Its Mr X!

(fast forward)

During reading period, everyone was happily
reading our newspapers(sport section)
THEN, there was a damn disgusting
and deafening half cough half sneeze!
you could hear the cough from the troat,
mucus from the mouth/nose and saliva splatted,
I mean SPLASHED out into the fresh air.
Which means it was polluting.
It sounds sth like. "AHhh........PPPPiUsHHH"
Everyone almost burst out in laughter
even to the state of rofl.
Guess who is it?
Yes, Its Mr X!

(fast forward)

Towards the end of assembly,
we were dismissed from the parade square.
I can see someone still very sleepy and blur.
I didnt notice much, UNTIL
I saw him held up his SS skillbook
AND KNOCK his HEAD 2 times!
LOL ><>way of awaking yourself.
Ok. Same qn.
Guess who is it?
Yes, Its Mr X!

(fast forward)

Bio lesson.
We were having experiment,
on reducing sugar, starch and proteins.
Then we notice that we doesnt have any protein food!
So i walked to Nick Lam.
And told him,
"Nicholas, do you know sth?
We dont have protein food today!"
Suddenly, sumone spoke
"Are you trying to say,
take one piece of me (to experiment)?"
OMG. Glad you know that.
You said that yrself, i didnt!
Same same qn.
Guess who is it?
Yes, Its Mr X!

Then i was like talking to James
abt me breaking the testtube last week,
cos i picked it up with the wooden peg
when it was not even hot, so it broke.
Just then, I headr a 'Crank'!
Someone broke a testube,
ON THE FLOOR! &$*^%$%^#$&*
LOL. thats clumsy to drop it on the floor.
Same same same qn
Guess who is it?
Yes, Its Mr X!

You Are 30% Extrovert, 70% Introvert

You are quite reserved You aren't afraid of social situations... But you very much prefer to go it alone And why not? You're your own best friend!

SAD...

everytime i joke,
is when i wanted to forget my misery.
And they never seems to leave me alone...



I think i should study my history more hardworking b4, the next test would be a structured essay qns. Mr Pah said we can choose the test marks that is better to insert into CA1. Hope I can do better....

I went to research about everything about history. I shall be a history nerd!

Assassination of Franz Ferdinand

Trench Warfare



Im stupid stupid stupid stupid stupid STUPID!

Failed HISTORY TEST!!! 3/10
Nobody would be as useless as me, not even 'Mr. F' who won me by two marks.
I was comletely dumb and foolish to wrongly interpreted the cartoon,
which was expressing the stupidity of the German soldiers, yet i said it was to show they were
PRO in war thats why they slack during war. WTH. stupid of me to think of this.
Wonder why i wrote that, slack and fool around in war because they are good and can
win easily? thats my lame answer. Now to redo it again, of cause all those stupid weird
stuff the soldiers did in the pictures were ridiculous. SO obvious it was laughing mocking
at them! The Britains ridiculed Germans! So i got Completely WRONG! Lvl 0/0, Zero mark!

Most DUMB thing was im focus on doing this stupid qn with 25/30 minutes of the duration!
Got only half a page of answer for the second one which was so easy but i got no time.
I hope it was only a bloop, am i really so stupid.


Dumb dumb des go emo le....
Er ist das dümmste idoit auf Masse



3RD day after i learnt rubic's and my timing is still so slow, fastest was only 3.58 min. Thats was so far away from < One minute.

A math test postponed to friday! SO chiong for chem tmr!



Oh, just keep quiet SHUT UP! I will never go say sorry.

Why i do i have to apologise to her. Ok, apologising other ppl like cailaoshi or ms kuck is alright to me, but to her? OMG, let me give you an eg. if i would apologise (which is not going to make sense):

Oh, Mrs Y**p, Im ABSOLUTEly SOOOORRRY, THAT, you scold me. I would like to sincerely apologise to you for SCOLDING AND INSULTING ME. I know that I WAS WRONG that YOU SCOLDED me. I know im wrong and i disappointed you for your music teaching? I learnt my mistake and i will not "scold me again"?


So does it make sense to apologise to someone whom you have not done wrong to?


Things to do:
English HW corrections
CNY A math HW
Chemistry HW
A math Test Correction
Overdued E math HW (ex 2.5)
PHYSICS TEST!



Omg. i just learnt how to solve the rubic's cube. So much formula (ALGORITHMS) to memorise. It took me 3-4 hours to digest and learn everything. first layer was pretty easy, 2nd layer was more difficult and 3rd layer was.....
I wasnt allowed to go out and buy one rubic cube today so i found a 3d program to play with. its called 'gabbasoft'. Model from 2x2 up to 20x20. its crazy man 20x20.

My first succeeded timing is 30 min 37.18 sec, 2nd try was 22 min 17.24 sec, 3rd try 11 min 17.62 secand lastly 8 min 25.98sec ! super sloww... lols

And i found one super 'pro' guy in youtube...
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Yai61bX5LgI







I rmb Mr Goh Hong Fei taught us a song when we were sec 1 or 2. It is called NPCC MARCH.
It sounds darn ULU and awful. Recently i found this song at the NPCC website.

NPCC MARCH
We will be faithful and always steadfast
Loyalty and service that's our aim
To serve with pride, ever looking forward
Marching onward all the time

Chorus

NPCC! Let's join hands
Uphold the law preserve the peace
NPCC! Let's join hands
Marching onward all the time

Between all races, there is no barrier
In NPCC we all join hands
To stand by Singapore in her endeavors
Serving our land all the time.


And I came upon the Npcc officer official blog and i saw....

the old NPCC days.









There were even one post abt the Headquarter's staff marriage, and it wrote "Siew Lea is our alumni management committee member for years... Her next mission is to help Singapore to increase the population...". LOLS



Yo. Happy Chinese New Year. I shall try as many greeting as possible.

Xin nian kuai le
Gong xi fa cai
hong bao na lai
wan shi ru yi
Nian Nian you 鱼!

Yes 鱼! This is wad i greet everyone in sch yesterday. I said to Jefferson.
We went to the newspaper collecting yesterday and i collected a BABY CHAIR. And i saw two big empty F**H tank! Im tot we are suppose to have leftover F**H every year according to the greetings?



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This is the current amount of badge i have compared to Jefferson...



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YAY. I got my marksmen badge today!

Jefferson failed leh...Lols... still say want to get marksman to prove me? crap talk ( i just accidentally typed carp, which is a species of f**h). My score was lousy though 61/80, the marksmen requirement is 60...

And where the hell is our safety first badge?

I hope i can get this badge next year.

Is it possible?



Hey peeps, Xms Npcc got GOLD for 2007!
NPCC WEBSITE (cont. reading if you dun mind me crapping abt NPCC.)

Yay, super happy unbelievable sia. Finally we are not the odd one out liao.
school management, stop cutting cost and budget for our unit OK? we are not some lousy CCA, Uni Group and Npcc unit that deserves nothing. Have ppl ever know that, Npcc is probably the UG that has the most cadets and its more tedious and proud to be in charge? Who says NPCC is boring?(ok, me)

Hey all Npcc cadet, be proud that u are in Npcc. Do not need to look down on ourselves anymore cos WE CAN GET GOLD TOOO! We rock...

MOnfort get silver again? Unbelievable...the HQ kena stamp on their eyes?
I thought they were super ultra ENTHU?





So back to non CCA.
EMaths test was basically easy except all qns. (you understand?)
And i didnt know theres campcraft today! (Oops, Np again...soorry if you are bored by it, then its ok you exit this blog)
I didnt know why i offered to help hamper delivery again.
Missed my Lunch...
went back sch for the boring HMT lesson and
GO travel Fair!

wa sian... 3 ppl interested only? we were like 20 ppl going last year.
Hope it will go on as per normal, dun cancel pls.
stayed and rar rar for 2 hrs?
Then go campcraft trning.
wtf xanier scold me for running around with the pole.
(ok i look childish doing that)
I got one popiah and bbt treat from 'Germany'!
Went i was going home, they still packing.
Crap a while and throw poles around b4 going home.

Crap stuff
Nowadays i feel so lousy and lousy and i felt very lousy.
Cos i am lousy and im really losy so i think i feel lousy.
I got the feeling to be a normal student with no extra commitment.
Im tired by everything around me. Should i quit the campcraft competition?
Oh dun blame me although i know they will blame me cos they will blame me if i made them blame me for quiting. So should i quit and let them blame me, or should i blame them for not letting me quit? I dunno...

You Are a Tuna Fish Sandwich

Some people just don't have a taste for you. You are highly unusual. And admit it, you've developed some pretty weird habits over the years. You may seem a bit unsavory from a distance, but anyone who gives you a chance is hooked! Your best friend: The Club Sandwich Your mortal enemy: The Turkey Sandwich

You Are 67% Angry

You're a pretty angry person, although you might not describe yourself that way. But if you think about it, you probably feel annoyed, frustrated, and disappointed often. All of the emotions above are classic signs of anger. And if these angry feelings are controlling your life, you may need help.

You Are 60% Addicted to the Internet

You're somewhat addicted to the internet - but who isn't? You can keep it under check, and you're by no means a hermit.

You May Be Pregnant

Yup, you could be preggars! See a doctor to confirm, okay?

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