Im just another damned man, living in a damned world.

I cant hold any longer. THis is making me crazy.

Why do i have to beg you to come Np campcraft?
If you dun wan to help the girls team than fine.
Didnt even bother to bring attire.
Beg you for so long to help someone.
You think you wad? A king?
Kaiser? Tsar? Emperor?
OR Doryking?
You think such a slacker like you will give them
precious suggestion?
Wad crap you say.
"the twine better quality than training one."
Yeah right thats gonna help them a lot.
They will win with a lift of their finger,
because your 'suggestion' was so important.
I came today because i really want to help them.
Everytime i came to help, CI, HO wadeva will
try some ways to pump me.
Its the last training b4 their competition tmr.
"Competition over liao, who cares abt the girls"
I wonder who the Fcuker who said that.

Came as if its a meaningless training and slack.
Come on dumb fish, can you spare a thought for others?
Especially you are a part of Xms Npcc.
So wad our boys didnt do well and the competition is over.
Cant you have the initiative to help your own unit?
The whole week is full of chances to help them.
Wad did some bloody fool did?
Stayed at home shake leg play computer.
Oh so that is how you treat others?
People are in school trying their best to train,
i think they need advise to win too.
(although i dunno if my advice is beneficial to them)
I tried, tried my best to help.
It was really heartwarming as their timing get faster,
i think its not over the problem whether they are better
than the boys team, they are still our fellow schoolmates.
I would feel better if they can do better than us.
That is why i wanted to help them, so they can represent us
and win the competition for us!
But apparently, some stupid dumb shit who selfishly thinks
its not his problem anymore, doesnt have the heart to help!
Wads your problem, it doesnt kill you to help.

Screaming and talking crap was not suppose for them,
thats why i didnt stop you when you imitate them.
Probably to make them stop.
But there is no need to discourage them by saying
their timing is slow, etc.
Thats why i stopped you and was angry the first time.

I seriously think that the mock competition today,
is needed to help them. Although we are not in the
competion anymore. Our speed will motivate them even further.
I really hope we can make a fast pitch too.
But, no one was serious in the mock competition!?!?!
I was relly disapointed. I feel like slacking in the 2nd one.
However, b4 the second try, melvin emphasized to us
abt the purpose of this mock competition.
That makle me thinks that maybe we will
be more serious in the second one.
But apparently some bloody slacker who thinks he did alot,
throw his tantrum at everyone.
I was adjusting the inner part of the shelter,
the middle dowell pole was broken, so i was unable to salvage it.
I used my small method to increase the tension of the shelter.
Suddenly someone idiot step inside and ka jiao me.
He said " I cannot do the tension leh"
If you dunno how to do something, isnt it common sense to get out
and do sth he knows? Despite me telling him "Go and help outside!"
He continued to dilly dally and sort of destroying the middle pole,
So i shouted "Help outside! i settle here!" He still do not understand.
Doesnt he knows that time is running out and its inefficient to stay
inside and blur? So i keep shouting the same thing again.
Smart ppl will finally understand and not blur.
However, he began to get angry and crazy.
Saying I blamed him in everything.
PPl pls justify, from wad i said above, did i blamed him anything yet?
Because of his tantrum we didnt complete in time.
This is then the time i should blame, but i didnt say a word!
So wad is he trying to do by saying i blamed him in the shelter?

I was very disapointed with him ,who i my friend.
Accuse me of so many things.
Worst of all, he didnt think of the truth in the end, and still tries
to be funny. I was so depressed and packed up very slowly.
If you were sad with your 'best friend' would you still do things normally?
Scolded me. Just keep forcing and pushed me to hurry up.
After i packed the stuff, i gotten my bag and walked off.
In fact, i was still very sad and walked off slowly, heads down.
But the CI, apparently thinks i am showing atitude.
Scolded me with such angry tone.
Accusing me for not respecting him.
I was too depressed to answer him in normal tone, and he
assume i was talking rudely and showing atitude.
Just then the slacker idiot walked off w/o informing too.
I tot he was gonna be scolded like me too.
He answered him in a very chheky, heck care tone.
"huh? oh, i forgot got debrief liao ma"
I think that was not respecting Jason rather than me walking off,
which the slacker did too.
So jason forgave him for his rude and forgetful reason.

So i didnt feel good after that. Continued to be what you called,
Emo.
I just walked with the NCOs after training, just to avoid the slacker.
Tecgk guan and bryan was the only one who knows the truth and consoled me.
Tried to appear as if nothing happened, i played with the NCOs,
still feeling sad inside me.

When i walked home, Peiling and Huimin saw me and began to suan me for
kickboxing and lame stuff. "lame shit, noob shit, idiot pig"
they said to me. That hurts...