Im just another damned man, living in a damned world.

Sad? Couldnt believe this is what Np give us after 3 years...
Was really shock when Jefferson didnt even have a post.
Why isnt there a choice for us to choose what we want?
Just some decisions from the TO and others.
Chose people who dun even want to help Np.
(eg. Jiahui turned the Np cupboard topsy turvy)
So what if hes good in drills or wadeva, theres a time to be serious
and he is never. Im not saying those people do not deserve it,
but their atitude SUCKS.
I cant do anything when they were in squad last few years.
But are we going to let them show the juniors?
Not really disappointed by my post, but i rather want admin
than a next year job.
Do you know what some says? The Service day is going to be their
LAST attendance.
OK, that person is Jeff.
Sian, i see nothing for the rest of the year.
Just fall in into sec 3 squad for the rest of the parades and rot to death.

Oh wells, fall sick rather easily these days,
average of 5 hours sleep everyday doesnt seem to be ample
for me to stay awake in class.
Morning training doesnt seem to work.
No one sees my effort.
Im just a normal cadet that tries to make npcc surpass other UG.
Wild hope, Np will never excel when people dont take it seriously.
If they continue to skip/be late for the training so be it.
I no longer have the physical strength to hold on anymore.
When i lose the mental mind persevere on, perhaps its really
time i should go, just like doryfish.
Train in the drizzle, train under the hot sun,
train in the early morning, train after the weary schoolday.
I can hardly stand during morning training,
i cannot sing the anthem out, not even a single sound.
My left ear seems to be deaf out of the blue this few days.
Yet all this could only contribute to me being lonely in the corner,
sobbing.